engraved in the mind

death and all his friends

2009-10-20T00:05:00.001+08:00

went for a tea party HERE.

take time to realise

2009-10-02T16:56:00.001+08:00

to dream. to fight. and to actually get there.

Set me on the right track

2009-10-01T18:03:00.000+08:00

On the day of the thousand, I woke up and thought to myself:

I think I'm just really selfish

2009-09-22T22:42:00.001+08:00

Talk to me before I go, don't you know I'll miss you so?

Fifteen hours.

four days in the rain; four nights in the rain.

2009-09-20T01:03:00.003+08:00

I stood for ages under the shower after training today. There were so many thoughts going on in my head. So many things I want to do, so many things I have to do, so many things I don't want to do. The balance is tipping, the boat's not moving as far as it should be. I wish time could stand still so I could stop and dream that little bit more. The pounding of water from the showerhead above. Don't lose focus? How do I not lose focus when there are so many of distractions pounding at the door? I really hope something good comes out of this. I really really hope so. Not my will, but God's will be done.

It's not the time to hold on.

2009-09-03T23:20:00.002+08:00

Take time to realize
That your warmth is
Crashing down on in
Take time to realize
That I am on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now

Take time to realize
Oh oh I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by
Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you
No its never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you

It's not always the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it to
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way
It could be the same for you

Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now

But I feel, too.

Silence is the new noise;

2009-08-18T00:10:00.002+08:00

When you remain silent, people hear you the loudest.

We have to fix this please. At this rate all we'll have is a history, but no future. Where's that passion and fire - that discipline and fighting spirit?

41 days

2009-08-13T23:44:00.000+08:00

2 weeks to start of creatine load.

A little water clears us of this deed;

2009-08-06T00:01:00.001+08:00

If sand could flow from present to past,
Would my better nature still hold fast?

to this beautiful moonlight;

2009-08-04T21:44:00.001+08:00

Run far away
So I can breath
Although you're far from suffocating me
But I cant set my hopes too high
'Cause every hello ends with a goodbye

Press on.

2009-08-04T21:37:00.001+08:00

It's not the boat, it's the rower. Nelo or advantage, I'll thank God.

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend

Of Modern Ambition

2009-07-27T21:44:00.002+08:00

Room rings with incessant noise.
taels of gold; silver;
culture - drowned.
Who pays attention
when they know not their debtor?

Mind's a mess;
drifting in clouds outside these
four walls.
These walls can't hold my dreams,
yet by order of nature they will.

Don't leave my hopes
hanging.

Snapshotland

2009-07-27T00:33:00.004+08:00

I realise I avoid at great costs what I cannot handle.

It's too fragile to touch. Dare I?

Planetshakers - I Just Want You

2009-07-26T22:32:00.009+08:00

More than a nice melody
More than the sweetest of words
This is love I have found
And with this love I am found

I just want You Jesus
I just want You my Lord
I just want You Jesus
I just want You

Never could I comprehend
The love You so freely gave
Never could I be worthy
But Your love covers all of my sin

There is no greater love than Yours
Nothing else could ever compare
And even if i search all the world
I will never find a love like Yours

From the Inside Out

2009-07-25T20:23:00.001+08:00

A thousand times I've failed; still Your mercy remains.

There's no need to look outside your window;

2009-07-22T23:31:00.001+08:00

Mmmm. I think she's rather pretty. Em too.

They can laugh all they want;

2009-07-20T20:13:00.001+08:00

He gave her a flower, and that's more courage that I can ever gather.

gleich nicht

2009-07-19T21:42:00.003+08:00

Though moths lay rest upon a butterfly's flow'r;
A glimpse of blest brine pen an hour's diction.

Every Breath (Lord Take it All)

2009-07-17T23:03:00.002+08:00

Here I am
Humbled before You
Splendid Lord
Glorious King

All I am
Is in Your very hand
I am nothing
Without You

How can I live (I can't live)
A single day without You
How can I breathe (I can't breathe)
When You're not by my side
No longer I
But Christ who lives within me
Every breath
Lord take it all

Every breath
All I am
Lord take it all

It felt like it had just begun, when--

2009-07-17T14:23:00.002+08:00

I always get that empty feeling at the end of a great novel or movie. No one wants to admit that it's the end.

Lincoln Brewster - The Power of Your Name

2009-07-06T19:36:00.003+08:00

Surely children weren't made for the streets
And fathers were not made to leave
Surely this isn't how it should be
Let Your Kingdom come

Surely nations were not made for war
Or the broken meant to be ignored
Surely this just can't be what You saw
Let Your Kingdom come
Here in my heart

I will live to carry your compassion
To love a world that's broken
To be Your hands and feet
I will give with the life that I've been given
And go beyond religion
To see the world be changed
By the power of Your Name

Surely life wasn't made to regret
And the lost were not made to forget
Surely faith without action is dead
Let Your Kingdom come
Lord break this heart

Jesus Your Name
Is a shelter for the hurting
Your Name
Is a refuge for the weak
Only Your Name
Can redeem the undeserving
Jesus Your Name
Holds everything I need

Cut through the water;

2009-07-06T19:32:00.002+08:00

I will not glory in past achievements or in my present status, but I will glory in the future coming of the risen King.

It's raining outside;

2009-07-05T19:11:00.002+08:00

Too many distractions, too little time. The air is thinning.

And I can't
Breathe without you
But I have to
Breathe without you
But I have to

Breathe;

2009-06-30T20:38:00.000+08:00

Because words aren't worth it.

Our time is running out;

2009-06-24T20:03:00.003+08:00

It's getting scarce. I'll make every minute count.

An episode out of television drama?

2009-06-21T00:00:00.003+08:00

The demure sweet girl he barely knows or the good friend he's instinctively protective over?

Perhaps we'll know soon? In the next or the weeks to come.

Meditate upon:

2009-06-20T00:40:00.002+08:00

"What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit his very self?" - Luke 9:25

Good evening, world

2009-06-19T22:14:00.004+08:00

I love to excel at all I do, because I want to pass the knowledge and skill to those around me. I love to listen to the problems of those around me, because it reminds me that they are human, like me. I love to push my limits, because I know there's still so much more I can achieve. I love to evangelise, because I'm reminded of the time and effort others put into leading me back to God.

On a side note, whats wrong with my msn?

只对你有感觉

2009-06-15T23:36:00.000+08:00

微笑再美再甜
不是你的都不特别

玩的再疯再野
你瞪一眼我就收敛

It's difficult, but possible

2009-06-15T00:04:00.001+08:00

Some days he wished he could say to her:

To God be the glory

2009-06-14T22:48:00.002+08:00

It was good to have confided in the Comforter, to have cast my cares upon Him, to hide His Word is my heart.

For God is faithful.

To God be the glory.

Dear God:

2009-06-14T00:05:00.003+08:00

When you hit rock bottom, who do you turn to for counsel? Who do you turn to to cast your cares?

To love?

2009-06-13T22:55:00.002+08:00

I hate this hypocrisy. I hate this injustice. But to love. What is to love?

Yet words scar.

Let go

2009-06-13T21:56:00.003+08:00

It's just one of those days that I wish I could shut off all the noise around me. Yet not be alone.

Hillsong United - Love Enough

2009-06-13T07:36:00.002+08:00

Your love's enough to see the broken heart
Gain a brand new start with a brand new heart
As the faithful hope in things unseen
You're enough to see all the things they dream
Come to life

We're living in the Saviour today
And this day is what we have now
In this moment we have chosen to praise
And it's changing how we live now

Your love it broke my fall
It's more than enough and I need it
'Cause I've never known better
And I'll never know better
This love will see me soar
It's more than enough and I need it
'Cause I've never known better
And I'll never know better

Your love's enough to see the humbled man
Find the cause of Christ
With his outstretched hands
As the cripple grabs his mat to walk
You're enough to save him from the pain he bore

My Saviour
You'll never let me go
My life is now secure
My Saviour
You'll never let me go
And in Your hands my future's brighter

'Then he said to them all: "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me."' (Luke 9:23) As disciples of Christ, we are called to deny our fleshy wants, our fleshly desires and follow Jesus. But it's not easy all the time isn't it. It's important therefore, that God must be sufficient for us even as we live our lives on Earth. When God's love is enough for us, we won't seek love from other areas of our lives, yet at the same time be able to love with a love without barriers. We were the joy set before Jesus when He died for us (Hebrews 12:2), and He is now the joy set before us (Philippians 3:14).

Is His love enough for us?

Planetshakers - All that I Want

2009-05-14T18:30:00.003+08:00

My soul sings
To my Saviour King of Kings
I need You
You are everything to me

I love You
So much more than anything
I'll live for You
Jesus You are everything

You're all that I want
You're all that I need
You're all that I want
You're all that I live for in this world

Jesus You are all I need
Jesus You are everything

Planetshakers - Beautiful Saviour

2009-05-05T00:15:00.002+08:00

Jesus
Beautiful Saviour
God of all majesty
Risen King

Lamb of God
Holy and righteous
Blessed Redeemer
Bright morning star

All the heavens shout Your praise
All creation bows to worship You

How wonderful, how beautiful
Name above every name
Exalted high
How wonderful, how beautiful
Jesus Your name
Name above every name
Jesus

I will sing forever
Jesus I love You
Jesus I love You

MercyMe - Bring The Rain

2009-05-04T23:28:00.002+08:00

I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I’ve gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You

Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It’s never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you oh Lord
My only shelter from the storms
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know
There’ll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that’s what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain

I am Yours regardless of
The clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what’s a little rain

Holy, Holy, Holy
Holy, Holy, Holy
Is the Lord God Almighty
Is the Lord God Almighty

Brandon Heath - Give Me Your Eyes

2009-05-04T23:19:00.003+08:00

Looked down from a broken sky
Traced out by the city lights
My world from a mile high
Best seat in the house tonight
Touched down on the cold black top
Hold on for the sudden stop
Breathe in the familiar shock
Of confusion and chaos

All those people going somewhere
Why have I never cared?

Give me Your eyes for just one second
Give me Your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me Your love for humanity
Give me Your arms for the broken hearted
Ones that are far beyond my reach
Give me Your heart for the ones forgotten
Give me Your eyes so I can see
Yeah yeah

Step out on a busy street
See a girl and our eyes meet
Does her best to smile at me
To hide whats underneath
There's a man just to her right
Black suit and a bright red tie
Too ashamed to tell his wife
He's out of work
He's buying time

I've been there a million times
A couple of million eyes
Just moving past me by
I swear I never thought that I was wrong
Well I want a second glance
So give me a second chance
To see the way you see the people all along

Casting Crowns - Praise You In The Storm

2009-04-28T22:58:00.003+08:00

I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again I say amen
And it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I'll raise my hands and praise
The God who gives and takes away

And I'll praise you in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
And raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

I lift my eyes onto the hills
Where does my help come from
My help comes from the Lord
The maker of heaven and earth

Brenton Brown - Lord Reign In Me

2009-04-28T22:40:00.002+08:00

Over all the earth
You reign on high
Every mountain stream
Every sunset sky
But my one request
Lord my only aim
Is that You'd reign in me again

Lord reign in me
Reign in Your power
Over all my dreams
In my darkest hour
You are the Lord
Of all I am
So won't You reign in me again

Over every thought
Over every word
May my life reflect
The beauty of my Lord
Cause you mean more to me
Than any earthly thing
So won't You reign in me again

2009-03-14T22:38:00.003+08:00

Hmm I've decided that a blog is actually quite pointless, since I don't really post stuff about my life (not like anyone would be interested anyway), and I don't take pictures of myself or where I go. I've meant for this to be somewhere I can cast my thoughts and feelings about life where I am, but these thoughts and feelings are sometimes critical and of rather sensitive issues and would not be shedding any positive light on the mentioned areas. But I still enjoy writing - quite a bit at least - so I'll ink down my thoughts somewhere. Haha, so I'll just leave this site up for the music when I'm doing work. By the way, post count stands at 64. Cheerios (:

2009-02-23T00:29:00.001+08:00

To love is to obey. I'm praying for change.

2009-02-20T23:40:00.000+08:00

When life's not going your way, and you want to break the patterns of routine.

2009-02-16T00:00:00.001+08:00

what words can't satisfy, what hurts can't falsify. love is in the air, but they know not Love.

2009-02-11T20:45:00.001+08:00

Things are so much more precious when you fight hard to earn it.

2009-02-09T20:55:00.000+08:00

Hmm. The irony of a world-class education system.

2009-02-07T23:43:00.002+08:00

I've found my direction in life, and nothing shall deter me from doing the will of my God.

Find a need and meet it. Find a hurt and heal it.

2009-02-01T19:22:00.001+08:00

15 souls. Lord, give me faith that I may believe.

2009-01-30T18:06:00.002+08:00

Will I give up my life for them?

Unconditional love. Unconditional acceptance. Unconditional forgiveness.

2009-01-24T21:25:00.001+08:00

Sigh. Emotional rollercoaster. I wish things were as simple as they used to be.

2009-01-12T17:13:00.002+08:00

The irony of grades.

It's hard to be humble and praise God when we do well in something, but it's even harder to be thankful and praise God when we do badly in something.

Thank You, Lord.

2009-01-11T15:46:00.001+08:00

Thank you, Lord.

2009-01-08T20:52:00.001+08:00

Some people are just irreplaceable. It's no longer the same.

2009-01-08T20:49:00.002+08:00

Those were needles in a haystack. And I'm the magnet who always attracts these stupid needles. The more I try to stay out of it, the more pricks I get. And it's getting increasing worse.

Sigh.

2009-01-07T20:53:00.003+08:00

Mein Deutsch ist nicht gut. Nein, überhaupt nicht. Ich verstehe mein Deutschlehrerin gut nicht. Aber sie möchte mir die Note A1 für Deutsch in den O-Level Examina bekommen. Ich kann zu träumen weitermachen... Ich denke, dass ich sollte meine Deutsch jeden Tag studieren ):

2009-01-05T21:17:00.001+08:00

Zzz. Tired, tired, tired. And everyone's either offline, busy or dao-ing. I'm going to sleep early tonight.

2009-01-04T15:25:00.004+08:00

Matthew says that new year resolutions are bad. So here are three simple new year godly goals.

Respect and honour authorities. I realised I haven't really been showing much respect to Weejinn and Eddy during cell - constantly interrupting them with irrelevant and distracting comments. If you see this I want you to know I'm sorry ): I'll sit quietly and listen to you when you're teaching. And I realise I've been sleeping alot in class, which is plain disrespectful to the teachers. Sorry, I will do everything within my ability to stay awake during class now, like sleeping earlier during the school term by starting to prepare for my exams now and not leaving my projects to the last minute.

Respect and honour others. I realise I've have been making many negative remarks about people around me. Even though it's less than before, I resolve to fully abstain from gossiping and judging. And I've been interrupting a lot when my cell members share and showing disrespect through my sitting posture. Really sorry, forgive me please ):

Consecrate time each day to seek God, pray and reflect. I realise that my quiet time has been highly inconsistent throughout the holidays, even though I supposedly have more time. Despite my busy school day, I resolve to do my quiet time everyday, as well as pray and intercede for others. I recently got a planner from my mum, and I believe that God wants me to use it to record and meditate on my learning points, as well as to pen down intercession and prayer items daily. And I resolve to keep my eyes focused on God, not taking things into my own hands or being distracted.

Yup, that's about it. Only three this year, but that'll keep me busy enough. If anyone wants to, you could share your resolutions with me. We could be accountability partners and pray for each other (:

Alot of sacrifices to be made, but I like what pastor shared during service today from 2 Samuel 24:24 - 'But [king David] replied to Araunah, "No, I insist on paying you for it. I will not sacrifice to the Lord my God burnt offerings that cost me nothing."' Costly sacrifices have to be made, if I'm to live life as God intended - plan A living.

All these I entrust to God. Holy Spirit, guide and teach me the the Your ways.

2009-01-04T04:01:00.002+08:00

My God. No, seriously. That's the name of the song (:

Your faithful love
Has always been there for me
The greatest love
That I have ever known

What can I give to You?
For all You’ve given to me
You gave it all
And You are all I need

You are my King
You are my God
The praises I bring
Come from my heart

This is for You
For all You’ve done for me
And I wanted to show You
How much You mean
My God, my God

2009-01-04T02:28:00.002+08:00

Sigh. This is starting to happen too frequently. Wake up early in the morning, rush around everywhere. Reach home in the late evening so tired that I immediately fall asleep, and wake up at in the middle of the night. At least it's a Sunday today.

Need to start mugging. I even had a dream that made me more convinced I should start studying now. I need to locate the handwritten notes I copied out last year. I'm going to type them out now.

Anyway, life in school feels very unfamiliar without Mr See. I miss his scoldings. And all the interesting canoeing stories that I probably won't hear anywhere else. You've got to admit he has the passion and the wisdom to train up a bunch of slack and lazy boys into refined gentlemen who'll strive even in the toughest of conditions. Thank you, Sir. Come back soon (:

And yes. Everyone's convinced that I am emo. And having 'girl problems'. I have a more reflective side of myself that is a tiny bit quieter, that's all. And I shall quote Nic Low regarding 'girl problems' - "My girlfriend is my studies and my training."

New year. Fresh start. Time to do up the class seating plan.

2009-01-02T17:37:00.000+08:00

Thank God. Everything is finally settled (:

2009-01-02T17:14:00.002+08:00

36km SCF marathon next Sunday with Nicholas Ng. Canoeing clashes with Sunday service.

We're moving boats from MacRitchie to Kallang tomorrow. Mr Jonathan Ng is retiring as captain of the 12th (I) company tomorrow. Canoeing clashes with BB.

MOELC just arranged for my German lessons to be on Monday. Canoeing clashes with 3rd language.

And I just spent two and a half hours repinning the badges on my chevron.

Not exactly a fantastic way to start the year. My head's already hurting on the second day of the year. Both figuratively and literally - owing to the falling broom thrown by Darren in his attempt to retrieve someone's passport cover stuck near the ceiling.

Ah well, at least I'm still kicking and well alive. I thank God for seeing me through (:

2009-01-01T23:09:00.002+08:00

The time has come. To be a super guai kia (:

Let me be a light shining for you as an example for many, dear Lord. Let me shine in my studies, in my commitments, in my words. Let my daily life be a worship and sacrifice unto Your name, and may all glory be unto You, today and for all eternity.

2009-01-01T00:01:00.000+08:00

Happy new year (:

2008-12-31T00:32:00.001+08:00

I like to take some quiet moments to stare at the night sky sometimes.

2008-12-29T16:21:00.001+08:00

'I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it.' - Mark 10:15

2008-12-27T23:26:00.001+08:00

Thank you, Nic.

2008-12-27T22:24:00.006+08:00

No heart. No soul. No mind. We're only making music now. Though it's more of incessant noise.

Riffs, pads, crashes. Wrong place, wrong time. What happened to the vision of our band?

I've totally lost interest in playing in our band. The notes I play ring through an empty room. And how hard is it to remember to close in prayer?

I want to worship God every single time I play. I really do.

And my patience with you is wearing thin. I can understand if you're bored, but don't express your boredom at the expense of others. Learn to catch the hints.

2008-12-26T23:59:00.002+08:00

Why am I so eager for that msn message, for that sms, for that smile; but not as eager to speak to a few new friends brought into the house of God?

Change my heart, oh Lord. Change my heart.

2008-12-26T15:09:00.003+08:00

Why is it so easy to spend hours on the technical aspects of music, but so hard to focus for a few minutes on the spiritual aspects?

I want to play for You alone, Lord.

2008-12-26T00:50:00.003+08:00

Christ died to RESCUE us from our sins, to RECONCILE us to God, and to let us REIGN with Him. With Him who reigns.

What could stand before You
As You chose to embrace
A cross so undeserved You took for me
The weight of sin upon You
When You offered Your life
As You walked the streets of men with fading strength

How could we live but not see
Your sacrifice
Your glory

You reign, You reign
Over everything Lord, You reign
With power and justice divine
Over everything Lord, You reign

What was Your last thought
As You drew Your last breath
Where the victory was Yours for us to see
And all will know the truth
As we live by Your grace
Every praise to You alone

See now the King of Glory
Love of God become my calling
Father I surrender all I am to You forever

2008-12-25T23:34:00.005+08:00

I just realised how much I miss her.

I want to bring Valifer to church. For a proper practice session. I seriously don't think we'll go anywhere if we spend 20 minutes telling each other to stop playing random grooves while we think of a song to practice our team dynamics. I'm so glad Nic is back. It's time we started working together as frontline soldiers.

2008-12-24T08:43:00.002+08:00

All around the gentle patter
Raindrops from the morning shower
Dazed looks upon the dreary hues
Awaiting again the return of his dawn

2008-12-23T22:25:00.000+08:00

Sigh. Need to watch myself.

2008-12-21T23:32:00.002+08:00

What they said was probably true anyway. But at least I'm genuine. Sigh. I've still got a long way to go.

2008-12-20T23:48:00.002+08:00

Sigh. I don't know what I'm doing now. I don't know what I'm thinking either. I'm pretty confused. Everyone please bear with me. I'm going through a phase of great confuddlement ):

2008-12-20T22:31:00.000+08:00

The phone rang out in the silence, echoing in the dark halls.

2008-12-19T21:55:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling cheerful again. Anyone wants a free Christmas hug? You can always approach me if you want one (:

Christmas is all about love! And I have the greatest love of all in my heart (:

Thank you, Lord!

You are the source of the life
I can’t be left behind
No one else will do
I will take hold of You

I need You Jesus
To come to my rescue
Where else can I go
There’s no other name by
Which I am saved
Capture me with grace

I will follow You
This world has nothing for me

2008-12-18T12:19:00.002+08:00

Thank you Lefa for coming over to my house yesterday. Though you made me miss my afternoon nap and I ended up having to sleep at 8.30, you made me realise I could play Desert Song (:

Thank you Leon for your birthday present. My third. The first was the card from the Lightstix and the second was my bass from my parents and aunt. And even though I don't think I'm going to use it, thanks (:

Thank you Nicholas for being so direct and crude when reminding me "Stop it, Eugene. She probably doesn't like you". Haha let's focus on more important things. Like running the team and chasing God (:

Ah, it's good to be optimistic sometimes.

2008-12-17T12:50:00.003+08:00

A fallen, worldly generation. Discussing even the world as it is today disturbs me. So many fallacies that blind men as they bury themselves deeper and deeper in their mistakes.

Can't accomodate your spouse? No longer have any 'feeling' for him or her? Well that's simple. Sign on the dotted line and you're divorced. What a simple way out. Then you can get married again. Marital unfaithfulness? Don't forgive him. Get a divorce and find a better spouse.

Can't take the stress of work? Don't feel good enough for society? Can't take a few pranks? Hate your life? Hate how you look? Hate where you are in life? That's easy. The answer is in suicide. Leave this world and it's present miseries. But it's not that simple. Death doesn't resolve your troubles.

I don't want to write another cliche post. But accept this advice. The world and its fallacies will never satisfy. You were made the way you were. Plastic surgery, botox injections and silicon pads won't make you a more beautiful person. All His creations are beautiful in His eyes. We make mistakes, we have screw-ups in life. Isn't it just completely wonderful to have someone to run to when you're down; someone that is always willing to forgive when you apologise in all sincerity?

What we all need in this world is all God is willing to grace us with. Love. Forgiveness. Patience. Trust. Joy. Humility. Confidence. Hope. Faithfulness. Peace. Perserverance. We need God.

I don't want to tell the world what it wants to hear. I want to tell the world what it needs to hear.

I don't have so much free time as to go around publicising my religion. What the world is looking for - the solution to all their problems - is right there. I've found it. Many others have found it. And I hope that everyone whom I know will find it too. I'm indebted to my Saviour to share this message of love. Christmas isn't only about any ordinary gift. It's about the most precious gift of God. His forgiveness through Christ His Son. Santa Claus will never replace Jesus. My Christmas will never be merry until I know that my friends are in the knowledge and guidance in Christ our King. Christ He reigns.

40 million babies lost to Gods great orphanage
It’s a modern day genocide and a modern day disgrace
If this is a human right then why aren’t we free?
The only freedom we have is in a man nailed to a tree

100 million faces staring at the sky
Wondering if this HIV will ever pass us by
The devil stole the rain and hope trickles down the plug
But still my Chinese take away could pay for someone’s drugs

Our God reigns
Our God reigns
Forever Your kingdom reigns

The west has found a gun and it’s loaded with ‘unsure’
Nip and tuck if you have the bucks in a race to find a cure
Psalm one hundred and thirty nine is the conscience to our selfish crime
God didn’t screw up when He made you
He’s a father who loves to parade you

Yes He reigns
Yes You reign
Yes You reign
For there is only one true God
But we’ve lost the reins on this world
Forgive us all
Forgive us please
As we fight for this broken world on our knees

2008-12-16T23:02:00.003+08:00

There's a time to everything. And now's not it.

Let the spirit deny the flesh. I will hold on to my promise to God. Strengthen me, oh Lord.

2008-12-15T22:09:00.005+08:00

Found in Your hands
Fullness of joy
Every fear suddenly wiped away
Here in Your presence

All of my gains
Now fade away
Every crown no longer on display
Here in Your presence

Heaven is trembling in awe of Your wonders
The kings and their kingdom are standing amazed

Here in Your presence
We are undone
Here in Your presence
Heaven and Earth become one
Here in Your presence
All things are new
Here in Your presence
Everything bows before You

Wonderful
Beautiful
Glorious
Matchless in every way

2008-12-15T20:58:00.000+08:00

The true meaning of Christmas.

2008-12-14T18:12:00.002+08:00

Prayer. Thanksgiving. Love.

You called my name
Reached out Your hand
Restored my life
And I was redeemed
The moment You entered my life

Amazing grace
Christ gave that day
My life was changed
When from my shoulders
Fell the weight of my sin

So it's with everything I am
I reach out for Your hand
The hope that changed
A second chance I've gained
On You I throw my life
Casting all my fears aside
How could greater love then this
Ever possibly exist

Consume my thoughts
As I rest in You
I'm now in love
With a Saviour
Bearing the marks of His love

So I wait upon You now
With my hands released to You
Where a little faith's enough
To see mountains lift and move
Yeah and I wait upon You now
Dedicated to Your will
To this love that will remain
A love that never fails

2008-12-11T22:19:00.003+08:00

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I've been sitting around watching people walk by for the past two days, and I think I'm finally bored enough to post about girls. Lucky you!

This list is highly detailed and is correct to today, 11th December 2008. Some points are, of course, optional, but are usually a major plus point (: There are, of course, exceptions.

Ready?

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Eugene likes girls who:

LOVE GOD!
are friendly and nice (like me!)
are slightly attractive (the more the merrier, but a little bit is enough)
are humble
are sweet and gentle (:
are direct and honest (its hard to understand someone who isn't)
are genuine
are understanding
are cheerful and optimistic (*smile*)
are quiet with a playful side
are slightly athletic (I hate running alone)
are patient and forgiving
are generous with hugs (when I'm feeling down)
are not too bimbo-tic (a little is cute, but too much is scary)
are not too calculative
do not splurge too often (sometimes is alright, honest)
do not mind eating hawker fare
do not mind me talking with other girls (as sisters)
dress modestly
dress appropriately (like no FBTs at a wedding dinner)
can keep me in check (and tell me directly and maybe even bluntly when I make a mistake)
will share the housework with me
will taste and comment on my cooking (hehe...)
will do charity with me (: (that's why she shouldn't be too calculative)
will run with me (I'm actually quite lazy...)

Haha that's it for now! If you fulfil all of the above criteria, good for you! (Unless you're a guy :))

2008-12-09T22:59:00.001+08:00

Thank you, Lord. You are ever faithful, oh Lord.

One soul. Waiting to be impacted.

2008-12-06T00:19:00.001+08:00

Cover every step of my way. I need Your strength and guidance more and more, oh Lord. And I love You, God.

2008-12-01T20:39:00.002+08:00

This is God's message for all of my brothers and sisters out there, who're feeling weary and heavy laden. Don't give up.

Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When your heart's heavy
I... I will lift it for you

Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you
I... I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved

Don't give up
It's just the hurt that you hide
When you're lost inside
I... I will be there to find you
Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you
I... I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved
You are loved

Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world

Don't give up
Every one needs to be heard
You are loved

2008-11-30T00:42:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah. Congrats to Nic, our new captain (:

2008-11-30T00:22:00.004+08:00

I give it up to You, oh Lord.

You are above my fleshly desires. Keep my eyes upon You alone even as I go through each day, Lord let not my heart stray. You are sovereign, and I want to serve You with all I am.

I thank You Lord for all You've given me. You're a graceful God, You give though I don't deserve. Let me be satisfied with what You've blessed me with, and let me give thanks to my Lord.

To everything there is a season. And Lord I know that now's not the time. I lay it all up in Your hands. Your will be done, not mine.

Humble me, let me serve You each day and grant me the courage and protection as I witness for You. You are my Saviour, my Strength, my Hope. Without You I am nothing, and in You I'll find strength.

Let hearts be softened, let Your workers arise - for the time of harvest is here.

2008-11-23T22:39:00.002+08:00

A wish? Ah that's simple. My wish is for all of you to believe.

2008-11-23T00:07:00.001+08:00

Turn your eyes upon Jesus
Look full in His wonderful face
And the things of Earth will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace

2008-11-17T23:16:00.000+08:00

Forgive, without expecting to be forgiven in return.

2008-11-16T21:39:00.001+08:00

It's time to sit down closed off from the world, earnestly seeking God in prayer and reflection. I need His Word to guide my life.

2008-11-12T23:25:00.003+08:00

It has only been less than 6 hours since I packed my last packet of medicine and I've only known them for less than 2 weeks - yet I'm missing them already. Amanda, Jessica, Lyn, Dionna, Ophyllia, Samuel, Andrew and everyone else.

Losing a loved one must be unbearable.

2008-11-11T22:49:00.001+08:00

We're living in a world of compromise.

2008-11-08T23:09:00.005+08:00

"And from the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffers violence, and the violent take it by force." - Matthew 11:12 (NKJV)

Shall violence deter the Church from seeking God? May the Lord's blessings and aid be rained down upon our sisters facing tribulation, for protection and strength as the counter evil with good.

The time has come to step up.

2008-11-08T22:57:00.002+08:00

A thunderous clatter of rubber on the quadrangle pavement. Echoes. Echoes.

What's the point of all the glory when we can't even get our hearts right with God? Mistakes are mistakes made, and lessons for the humble of heart. There's more to it than human wisdom in every situation.

2008-11-06T00:22:00.002+08:00

Parents are back in Singapore. Chinese O Levels are over - it's time to get myself a proper bass. And I'm reminded of the fact that I have still so much to learn, and so little time.

2008-11-03T02:36:00.003+08:00

So I'm still awake at 2.36am. Not very much my fault, I overslept. I suppose the 3 alarms did go off at 7.30, 7.35 and 7.40pm respectively, but I am a heavy sleeper. Heh. Fancy blogging at such a time in the night. Maybe this is why the URL is "mynightjournal".

My parents and relatives are still overseas, and they'll be only back on Wednesday. I'll probably have to mop the floor tomorrow or something. After work. And I'll need to throw in some time for chinese revision, too.

Sacrifices must be laid out before God. I've already laid out a few, but it's just so tempting to turn back and retrieve the offerings made to God. But a decision is a decision, and God is above all my priorities. If they ever were priorities.