death and all his friends

went for a tea party HERE.

take time to realise

to dream. to fight. and to actually get there.

Set me on the right track

On the day of the thousand, I woke up and thought to myself:

I think I'm just really selfish

Talk to me before I go, don't you know I'll miss you so?

Fifteen hours.

four days in the rain; four nights in the rain.

I stood for ages under the shower after training today. There were so many thoughts going on in my head. So many things I want to do, so many things I have to do, so many things I don't want to do. The balance is tipping, the boat's not moving as far as it should be. I wish time could stand still so I could stop and dream that little bit more. The pounding of water from the showerhead above. Don't lose focus? How do I not lose focus when there are so many of distractions pounding at the door? I really hope something good comes out of this. I really really hope so. Not my will, but God's will be done.

It's not the time to hold on.

Take time to realize
That your warmth is
Crashing down on in
Take time to realize
That I am on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now

Take time to realize
Oh oh I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by
Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you
No its never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you

It's not always the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it to
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way
It could be the same for you

Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now

But I feel, too.

Silence is the new noise;

When you remain silent, people hear you the loudest.

We have to fix this please. At this rate all we'll have is a history, but no future. Where's that passion and fire - that discipline and fighting spirit?

41 days

2 weeks to start of creatine load.

A little water clears us of this deed;

If sand could flow from present to past,
Would my better nature still hold fast?

to this beautiful moonlight;

Run far away
So I can breath
Although you're far from suffocating me
But I cant set my hopes too high
'Cause every hello ends with a goodbye

Press on.

It's not the boat, it's the rower. Nelo or advantage, I'll thank God.

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend

Of Modern Ambition

Room rings with incessant noise.
taels of gold; silver;
culture - drowned.
Who pays attention
when they know not their debtor?

Mind's a mess;
drifting in clouds outside these
four walls.
These walls can't hold my dreams,
yet by order of nature they will.

Don't leave my hopes
hanging.

Snapshotland

I realise I avoid at great costs what I cannot handle.

It's too fragile to touch. Dare I?

Planetshakers - I Just Want You

More than a nice melody
More than the sweetest of words
This is love I have found
And with this love I am found

I just want You Jesus
I just want You my Lord
I just want You Jesus
I just want You

Never could I comprehend
The love You so freely gave
Never could I be worthy
But Your love covers all of my sin

There is no greater love than Yours
Nothing else could ever compare
And even if i search all the world
I will never find a love like Yours

From the Inside Out

A thousand times I've failed; still Your mercy remains.

There's no need to look outside your window;

Mmmm. I think she's rather pretty. Em too.

They can laugh all they want;

He gave her a flower, and that's more courage that I can ever gather.

gleich nicht

Though moths lay rest upon a butterfly's flow'r;
A glimpse of blest brine pen an hour's diction.

Every Breath (Lord Take it All)

Here I am
Humbled before You
Splendid Lord
Glorious King

All I am
Is in Your very hand
I am nothing
Without You

How can I live (I can't live)
A single day without You
How can I breathe (I can't breathe)
When You're not by my side
No longer I
But Christ who lives within me
Every breath
Lord take it all

Every breath
All I am
Lord take it all

It felt like it had just begun, when--

I always get that empty feeling at the end of a great novel or movie. No one wants to admit that it's the end.