four days in the rain; four nights in the rain.

I stood for ages under the shower after training today. There were so many thoughts going on in my head. So many things I want to do, so many things I have to do, so many things I don't want to do. The balance is tipping, the boat's not moving as far as it should be. I wish time could stand still so I could stop and dream that little bit more. The pounding of water from the showerhead above. Don't lose focus? How do I not lose focus when there are so many of distractions pounding at the door? I really hope something good comes out of this. I really really hope so. Not my will, but God's will be done.