Will I give up my life for them?

Unconditional love. Unconditional acceptance. Unconditional forgiveness.

Sigh. Emotional rollercoaster. I wish things were as simple as they used to be.

The irony of grades.

It's hard to be humble and praise God when we do well in something, but it's even harder to be thankful and praise God when we do badly in something.

Thank You, Lord.

Thank you, Lord.

Some people are just irreplaceable. It's no longer the same.

Those were needles in a haystack. And I'm the magnet who always attracts these stupid needles. The more I try to stay out of it, the more pricks I get. And it's getting increasing worse.

Sigh.

Mein Deutsch ist nicht gut. Nein, überhaupt nicht. Ich verstehe mein Deutschlehrerin gut nicht. Aber sie möchte mir die Note A1 für Deutsch in den O-Level Examina bekommen. Ich kann zu träumen weitermachen... Ich denke, dass ich sollte meine Deutsch jeden Tag studieren ):

Zzz. Tired, tired, tired. And everyone's either offline, busy or dao-ing. I'm going to sleep early tonight.

Matthew says that new year resolutions are bad. So here are three simple new year godly goals.

Respect and honour authorities. I realised I haven't really been showing much respect to Weejinn and Eddy during cell - constantly interrupting them with irrelevant and distracting comments. If you see this I want you to know I'm sorry ): I'll sit quietly and listen to you when you're teaching. And I realise I've been sleeping alot in class, which is plain disrespectful to the teachers. Sorry, I will do everything within my ability to stay awake during class now, like sleeping earlier during the school term by starting to prepare for my exams now and not leaving my projects to the last minute.

Respect and honour others. I realise I've have been making many negative remarks about people around me. Even though it's less than before, I resolve to fully abstain from gossiping and judging. And I've been interrupting a lot when my cell members share and showing disrespect through my sitting posture. Really sorry, forgive me please ):

Consecrate time each day to seek God, pray and reflect. I realise that my quiet time has been highly inconsistent throughout the holidays, even though I supposedly have more time. Despite my busy school day, I resolve to do my quiet time everyday, as well as pray and intercede for others. I recently got a planner from my mum, and I believe that God wants me to use it to record and meditate on my learning points, as well as to pen down intercession and prayer items daily. And I resolve to keep my eyes focused on God, not taking things into my own hands or being distracted.

Yup, that's about it. Only three this year, but that'll keep me busy enough. If anyone wants to, you could share your resolutions with me. We could be accountability partners and pray for each other (:

Alot of sacrifices to be made, but I like what pastor shared during service today from 2 Samuel 24:24 - 'But [king David] replied to Araunah, "No, I insist on paying you for it. I will not sacrifice to the Lord my God burnt offerings that cost me nothing."' Costly sacrifices have to be made, if I'm to live life as God intended - plan A living.

All these I entrust to God. Holy Spirit, guide and teach me the the Your ways.

My God. No, seriously. That's the name of the song (:

Your faithful love
Has always been there for me
The greatest love
That I have ever known

What can I give to You?
For all You’ve given to me
You gave it all
And You are all I need

You are my King
You are my God
The praises I bring
Come from my heart

This is for You
For all You’ve done for me
And I wanted to show You
How much You mean
My God, my God

Sigh. This is starting to happen too frequently. Wake up early in the morning, rush around everywhere. Reach home in the late evening so tired that I immediately fall asleep, and wake up at in the middle of the night. At least it's a Sunday today.

Need to start mugging. I even had a dream that made me more convinced I should start studying now. I need to locate the handwritten notes I copied out last year. I'm going to type them out now.

Anyway, life in school feels very unfamiliar without Mr See. I miss his scoldings. And all the interesting canoeing stories that I probably won't hear anywhere else. You've got to admit he has the passion and the wisdom to train up a bunch of slack and lazy boys into refined gentlemen who'll strive even in the toughest of conditions. Thank you, Sir. Come back soon (:

And yes. Everyone's convinced that I am emo. And having 'girl problems'. I have a more reflective side of myself that is a tiny bit quieter, that's all. And I shall quote Nic Low regarding 'girl problems' - "My girlfriend is my studies and my training."

New year. Fresh start. Time to do up the class seating plan.

Thank God. Everything is finally settled (:

36km SCF marathon next Sunday with Nicholas Ng. Canoeing clashes with Sunday service.

We're moving boats from MacRitchie to Kallang tomorrow. Mr Jonathan Ng is retiring as captain of the 12th (I) company tomorrow. Canoeing clashes with BB.

MOELC just arranged for my German lessons to be on Monday. Canoeing clashes with 3rd language.

And I just spent two and a half hours repinning the badges on my chevron.

Not exactly a fantastic way to start the year. My head's already hurting on the second day of the year. Both figuratively and literally - owing to the falling broom thrown by Darren in his attempt to retrieve someone's passport cover stuck near the ceiling.

Ah well, at least I'm still kicking and well alive. I thank God for seeing me through (:

The time has come. To be a super guai kia (:

Let me be a light shining for you as an example for many, dear Lord. Let me shine in my studies, in my commitments, in my words. Let my daily life be a worship and sacrifice unto Your name, and may all glory be unto You, today and for all eternity.

Happy new year (: